Back to Relief Society

I think I'm finally back to Relief Society on a regular basis. I had barely gone since Jacob died because it was so agonizing for me to see (and hear) babies and pregnant women which were all really hard to avoid. I usually just sat in the hallway and read a book. A couple months ago I hit a low point when two different mothers asked me to hold/watch their babies before church even started and another mom, whose son was born just days before Jacob died, insisted on hugging me while she was holding her baby. I went home and told Andrew I was just plain done with church, but some how things got better after that and I have been slowly going back to class. These last couple weeks I have not felt uncomfortable at all. It's a nice change. I feel like church is once again I place to be edified, rather than endured.